Aaron experiment

We had what I thought was a pretty relaxed conversation about things last night, I don't even really remember what at this point but Aaron got stressed and went into his it's late, you'll never let me sleep stress spiral last night. So it was hard feelings at bedtime. I said I was sorry and then had to ask him to apologize. We talked on the phone on his way to his date and he was stressed and weird and it didn't feel natural. I asked him to please be normal but he couldn't and in the end I decided I was asking for something that wasn't possible. Writing this I'm getting jealous because he will be out late tonight with someone else and he's not going to be crazy about his sleep, it feels unfair. I read a thing that said when you are jealous you should try to pin point what you are afraid of. I am definitely afterward if scarcity and someone else getting the care and attention I feel like I don't get. I guess I'm a little jealous because he's...

We had a difficult phone conversation. We were discussing Aaron state date and he asked if I was jealous. I tried to explain again that I was not jealous but I didn't want to feel like someone else was getting to go on more dates with my husband than I do. Because that's a thing that I have said many times I need and I'm not getting enough of. He became frustrated because I repeated myself too many times and said that I don't pay attention to him. I asked him if he knew what I wanted in our relationship and asked him to tell me but he wanted me to tell him and said he didn't want to play a game. I asked him to tell me because I think he thinks he knows and hence is frustrated that I keep saying the same thing over and over but I think he doesn't really understand and I wanted him to see that he doesn't. Often you realize you don't understand something only when trying to explain it to another person. I was feeling more and more frustrated, hurt, and gett...